h-ellolove

2009-09-10T12:58:00.000-07:00

The Fray - never let you go

Am currently late for dance. :S Uh, should i go work later... Frigging tired. I might be going MIA. > B'cos i'm going back with... :)

B.R.B

2009-09-09T01:38:00.000-07:00

if you think you're that great, then i tell you, you're not. if you love a person, you wouldn't even bear to make her cry. i truly understands how you feels. thanks for letting me realise, but i really give up this time. i know my looks cmi, i don't deny i'm freaking ugly. it hurts to see me hurting you. okay, fcuk this part. you said i was being dramatic yeah? but that's how i feels. if you don't wanna hear it or whut, then just tell me luh. take my stuffs for dukey, okay fine, i'm a dog. how about you? so.. i can't communicate, or is that you. i gave you a call, you wouldn't even listen to me and you just kept bombing. since you chose it, then let it be. you said move on, but where do i go? well, i promised i'd move on, just give me some time.

9/9/09 indeed a date to remember..

2009-09-08T23:19:00.000-07:00

what kind of a friend you call yourself? a person who've been there for you and helped you thru your ups and downs. you don't worth anything.
(insert smiley)

2009-09-05T23:56:00.000-07:00

Lastly, a super long ago picccc.

Nothing much today. Hahah, mummy loves me more today b'cos i stayed at home for th whole day and went out with family :) Heh. Mugged from 1pm+ to 5pm. Went for a nap till 7pm, woke up bathe and got prepared. Headed to Je and dine there with family. Yummy full full and fat fat fatty me becomes :( Calling for gym soon, wants and have to be 40kg by end of this month :O Aftermath, headed to IMM. Mummy promised to buy me Everlast's and Fox's flipflops and Levis's tanktop. Mummy rockxzx oh love you ^^ Got Maybelline's make-up remover, super shiny blacky mascara and Silky girl's eyeliners of different colours. Gonna get full face make up remover, foundation and cheek roser soon. Bought one blue & one black Pashimina shawl too. Hahah, it's so ex to for Mummy to raise me. Heh, and Mummy DKNY Delicious and Anna Sui's perfume please Mummy :( Hahah.
Home around 11pm+.

Awwwww..
Miss my babybobbbbbbb <3>

Knock you down

2009-09-04T23:46:00.000-07:00

Happy 11th Monthsary Babyboy
♥ you many many many

Meet Baby earlier on after my school. Headed for 'turning point' that movie. Thought it would be nice, but it turns out to be lame. -.- Alright, after movie slack around Yishun area then home around 11pm.

Hahah, i've got alot of zilian photos leh.. Shall post it up at the next post. Bleah:P

Still not as perfect

2009-09-03T17:32:00.000-07:00

Well..
A short update first, pictures for sure at th next post. ^^

Have been v busy lately.. Holis next week. I miss dance, i love dance. :) Mira'gf didn't came school today, make me so lonely only.. Miss ya (L) PW so stucked up and life is school = cmi -.- Suppose to overnight @ Winnie's house today :( Dread tired. Roar.. Miss my Babybob (hearts)

i'm so sad, krystal is so sad
krystal wants to be a happy girl, i want to be a happy girl
collasping, i've never felt in this way ever before, depressed

To my beloved Lady in Shiny red sexy dress :D

2009-09-01T03:34:00.000-07:00

Firstly some message to those disapprove of this relationship.
why want to break us up?
im not being rude, i dont want to be rude, i aint gona be pissed or so.
simply just want to say, why not be happy for us?:D
My bee loves me, i love me bee so damn very much too:D
we`re happy now.
I`d rather you`d be contented in a thought of, you friend got back with the one she loves:D

People may never understand me, Except her.
Therefore you really shouldnt judge a person by the book:D
at first when u tell her things or tag on her blog saying why patch these and that i was so freaking angry, but i realised, you care for her, i care very very much for her too.So think about it lets not quarrel inside.
ILOVEMYBEE.
I hope you understand our relationship is serious.Please dont be upset she is with me.
I really dont want to quarrel with any of her friends:), please dont get in my way:)
Lets be friends instead of enemies. much more simpler and better:D

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NOW TO MY darling babbbyy.
Sweetie pie YOU DIDNT TELL ME UR RESULTS!
BABY u damn "naughty" and very cute when u are. its like 3 right now i know im going to get screwd by you tml.
I really want to have a happy rs with you. we have to give in more:D
Baby ur mood swings making me sad.

Bee iloveyou.iwillneverletyougo:D, you should catch me before i run haha.
i cant wait till your in a glossy red dress.
You have to nicely correct me when in doing things you dont like. Ill do the same:)
toot toot kia. cant wait for tml. i forgot i need to meet my probation officer so ill meet her at 11.30 at thomson. after that MEETING MY WIFFY.Haha got alot of secret plans for you:D
I dont know how to speak to your sis and mother and father. aiyo that one another stress, navin whatt happen between you and krystal ahhh
i die ready..
well i hope they understand deep inside how much i care for u fatty.
kinda sleepy now, couldnt sleep stuff bothering me. hopefully it resides tml.
ILOVEYOU SUGAR.
MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMUUUUUUUAAAACKKS!!!

can i ask you; why are you so obessed with me

2009-08-31T09:49:00.000-07:00

Happy bleated birthday Krystal!
Cheers!^^

Sunday,
Th most sweetest moment and i've gotten back with my dearest babyboy, Navindren. Thanks for th wonderful birthday celebration. (L)
Meet up with Baby early in th morning around 10pm. Bused to Vivo and had breakfast at LJS. Catched th movie 'the final destination', wasn't really nice. Aftermath, went into Sentosa and swam. He carried me in th middle of th sea and at that moment i know, it's you and only you. Had dinner at th Koufu there. Bathed and went off somewhere elses interesting and nice. :D Hsh around 11pm. Mummy ordered pizza and ate it. After eating, packed my stuffs and headed to Winnie's house overnight (chiong pw). Damn suay one can, vomitted and vomitted. Winnie is really sweet, she tried all ways and gave me medicines she could find for me. :) Love you girl. Slept for around less than 2h?

Monday,
Happy Teachers' Day! Meet up with Shirley and Beepeng, walked to school together with Winnie along. Slept throughout almost all th periods. Got back some results, totally cmi! :S Teachers' Day celebration around 12pm. Frigging long, hot and stuffy. After celebration, meet up with Crystal near Blss and cab to my house. Bathed and went back to FHPS. Yushan & Wanqi, misses! (hearts) Around 4pm, left and cab to Bl area. Slack off all th way with co. Claudia, cheer up alright! I'm here for you always, i'm just a call away. <3

Lexuan gf, you'll be reading this i guess. I don't want us to drift, idk why you ain't talking/texting me like usual. Why? I miss you girl, ily.

Seriously lack of sleep, eyebags and pimples. :( Well, shall head to bed now, will upload pictures soon alright. Nights all.

Pictures not to be burn

2009-08-29T23:37:00.000-07:00

Lexuan, Me, Jiayu, Justina (L)

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Escape > Bugis > Home

Though it was a super tiring day, i still enjoyed myself with my girls, i love them. :) Thanks for everything sweethearts, always loved. (L)!

Justina & Jiayu left their work early for me. :) Heh, met up with Lexuan @ Jp first around 12 noon. She went to buy her Everlast tee, super pretty, i want also! :( Well, headed to shk and meet Jiayu & Justina @ Jp control station. Trained down all th way to Pasir Ris from Jookon, ass pain luh..

Bus to Downtown then. Bought our tickets and went in. Pirate ship, i almost cried my ass out. I got phobia of height, grr. Then went to play th gold kart, 4 of us challenged tgt only, i came in first! ^^ Pro hor. Blah blah blah. Vomitted acid whatever fcuking pathetic shitxzx. Then no mood anymore, changed and left Escape. Headed to Bugis aftermath. Sad, Jiayu left.. :( Th 3 of us then continued to have steamboat at Bugis there. Yummy yummy, Justina super cock canxzx wth. Ate till around 10pm+, then train back home tgt.

Came home early b'cos there's another celebration tomorow. Thanks to those who wished me happy birthday after 12am. (L)

Going off to bed. Eyes cannot take it. Nights all.

Krystal ms.impunctual

2009-08-29T11:23:00.000-07:00

I'm like super late already can, yet i'm still posting. Gonna get screwed, hahah. Going Escape with Lexuan, Justina & Jiayu later on. Pray hard that it doesn't rains. Steamboat still later? And Marina barage? See how it goes later on. I'll be a happy girl :) Cheers!

Need a drink?

2009-08-28T23:54:00.000-07:00

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Bugis > Town > Jp > Carpark > PM > Central > Jiayu's house > Home

Meet Crystal on bus and came together to my house. Went to prepare and stuffs while she played with Darling. Aftermath, went to buy pack. Slack and waited for Chinan. Crystal went off while Chinan & me train down to Bugis. Shopped around, bought a top. Wah damn suay canxzx, high waist shorts no my size! :( They say i too slim, ask me eat more then come back buy. Z-.- Wth. Trained to Town, then meet up with Sharon, Chantel and co. They're really nice and cool people. Was supposed to shop tgt with them, but i've to go back to Jp. Ps girls, meet up one day again ok? :)

Around 6pm+, bus to Jp. Meet up with Lexuan, headed for dinner. Went to some carpark shk and slack there. Called up Justina & Jiayu, headed over to PM then to meet them. Slack at th carpark there, shk and slack again till 10pm+. They ciao off while Lexuan & me went to slack at 900+. Shk shk then need to answer nature call, no toliet available. So, rang Jiayu up and went over to her house. Lol?-.- Aftermath, she send us to th bustop. Hsh around 12am.

Will upload more pictures up soon. Tata.

2009-08-28T08:36:00.000-07:00

Someone tell me what should i do now, could someone guide me and help me out of everything i'm facing now? What should i do? Sress and fcuked up. Hate this, damn my life. Idk what to do, what should i do? Roar!!!

Big thanks to all those who were there for me when i was breaking down, tearing apart. My greatest gf Sarmira, dearest girl Lexuan, friends and my other love ones.

Bugis then Town later on. Hope everything goes on well.
:)

I'm so lost

2009-08-27T23:53:00.000-07:00

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Lexuan girl, i'll always be here for you, no matter what. We promised each other we'll be there for each other no matter what. :) Stay strong. (L)

Adriel, you'll be reading this blog post. Well, you promised before.. Truly understands all guys cannot be trusted including you, but excluding him. Idk what stunts you're trying to do now, but i'm never gonna like you. Try as hard as you want, you made me hate you instead. Liar. Call yourself a christ? I love a person for who they are, not what they have. I don't need an audi tt or lambo. If th guy who i love wasn't rich, i'll still be with him. It's th heart, not th wealth. Can you buy happiness with money? Obviously no. Think about it. If you dare touch Navin a single touch, i don't know what i'm capable of then. I still love him, that i can't deny. It's true love, not lust. Leave him alone.

& to whatever fcukers bitch plk
Don't know anything, then don't anyhow say. I don't have new bfs. I don't change bfs like changing clothes, unlike you. If you think you're seriously sat or what, then i'm telling you, you're damn ignorant and stupid. Study for your future man. No life lah, everyday go tio people. How old alr? Seriously, damn immature. You die die want make me, i see till how long you can make me. 999 lah dey. If you don't know what happened between me and Navin, then don't anyhow poon ljw. Act step yi ge know everything, but seriously speaking, what you know? Nuts. Stupid biatch. :)

Frigging screwed

2009-08-26T16:44:00.000-07:00

What th hell is happening?

Test today like again. I didn't do th whole page which consists of 9marks, i left it all blank, not even a question attempted. :( Well done eh Krystal? Tried to copy from friend, but it was unsuccessful. Damn. At least for another page of 8marks, i wrote 2 sentences. Argh, gonna flunk everything. Good job Krystal! :S

Did th choosing of sub combination. Shucks, i wanted to get into triple science. But.. Chose double pure instead, b'cos i didn't passed any science test throughout this whole year, all f9. Hah.. Took 3 math, cool? :) Lol.
Btw, big thanks to Diana for th walk from school to bustop (L)

Tons of assignments left undone. & Final pw has to be submitted tomorow. Roar, lagging behind time, way far behind. Nvm, last 2 papers tomorow. :)

Well, going out now to meet Lexuan. Blog soon when i'm back.
Ciao.

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why can't i just get you out of my mind, why does you keep appearing in my mind, why? i just can't move on..

Fcuk th world manxzx

2009-08-25T22:54:00.000-07:00

School suck ballz like seriously. 3 test in a role today, all cmi. Hahah. Screw it.

After school, meet up with Lexuan'dearest. Accompanied her to polyclinic and got her injection. Went home to change while she played with Darling @ my house. Headed to IMM around 5pm. Walked around and had dinner @ long john. Hsh around 9pm.

Lexuan hunny!
Well, i don't know how we came about and get close. Thanks for being there whenever i need someone. :) Love you truck loads, muacks. Play happy birthday song with your guitar to me! Love you Hunny! Misses! :)

Thanks Sarmira, Adriel, Zb panda & other loves.
^^

Can't you see it?

2009-08-24T17:14:00.000-07:00

Moving on, i'll be a better person, a happier person.

Everybody says they've never seen me a lil much more happier today after so long, my smiles and how cheerful i'm. So i hope i'd made th right choice, and i guess i did. I haven't gotten over you, i'm trying to. It takes time. Meet up soon, i want to get my stuffs back. And i wish you all th best. Thru this, hope you've realise that: Girls can't wait forever, they don't have a lifetime for you if you don't do something and continue being stagnant. Too little too late.

To all my friends:
I thank all of your, for forgiving me and being understanding. I'll never repeat my mistakes again. I feel guilty and regretful. But well.. What's done, can't be undone. Smile that it has happened, get over and move on.

Lexuan'sweetz, moving on with me. I'll never turn back. I don't need a guy to lean upon, i'd rather spend money on myself, pamper myself. I'm not a bird who you keeps in your cage, i need to fly. Get over and done with.

Hope everything goes well and days will get better for me and my dearest girl Lexuan. Promised each other we would be there for each other no matter what. No how much other people gonna say, we ourself know jiu ok alr. Love you girl.

Btw, i've lost my 485 msn contacts. Kindly add me back @ im.krystal@hotmail.com :) tyyy.

F-r-e-e-d-o-m, how i define it, nice.

I'm a happy girl once again! Manage to get back my 6 earholes. :D I wanna pierce my eyebrow, naval, smiley, tragus, tongue and nose. Ha, going to th experts @ queensway to pierce it. Booking an appointment for eyebrow piercing later on. Money money come come!

Friday: Outing with HCA'Chinan to Bugis then Town. I guess i'll get high waist shorts, off shoulder tees and dresses and MANGO tanktops! I've got $50 to bomb that two places. Kinda little, but have to save th rest for th other days.

Saturday: Advance birthday celebration with Lexuan, Justina & Jiayu to Escape/WildWildWet then Marina there fly kite then eat steamboat then erh idkidkidk alr.

Sunday: Guess will be having th day with family but stupid daddy is flying off to don't know which country with his friends to play and bomb me. But he promised he'll give me a bigger Birthday red packet. Heh:D Might be going with HCA'Chinan to Sentosa for tanning in th morning.

Tanning anyone? Kbox anyone?

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Days will get better, i'll never forget th times we'd, move on.

I'll never love again

2009-08-24T00:52:00.000-07:00

Eh, i love my unglam photos! :D
Retardddddddddddd.

,

Nothing last forever. From this r/s, i've learnt a lesson, both good and bad. Okay, whatever it is, i'm determine to get over you this time. Though it would hurts and it takes time, i really don't wanna be upset and torture myself anymore. I know i've never been perfect, you was never too. I thank you for everything you've done for me. There's so much more ahead of us, letting go for th good. Let's move on with our life and be a happier person. All th best to you. :)

2009-08-23T23:47:00.000-07:00

Jiayu Dearest, got my first birthday present from her.
:) Thank you so much. Hearts!

This asshole Justina! She loves to eat my shitxzx :D She say she'll give me 1litre of her breast milk. Ha, crazy one la! (L)

With one heart, we love. :)

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Headed over to look for Lexuan, Justina:D, Jiayu@ PM Mac.
Studied all th way, but didn't study much.
Lol. Got problem one lor, but that girl apologize.
Nabeh, no fun alr lah..
After 6pm, went to slack @ playground.
I ciao first and went over to Grandpa's house.
Hsh around 10pm.

My birthday???

I hate Daddy!
He's flying over to don't know what country with his friends on my birthday!
V angry luh Daddy, you nabehxzx!
Make me so sad.. :'(

Friday 28Aug: ???

Saturday 29Aug: Advance birthday celebration with Lexuan, Jiayu & Justina to Escape. Aftermath in th evening, head over to Marina there fly kite then have steamboat. :D

Sunday 30Aug: My birthday! Family??? *notsure*

KBOX anyone!!?

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Diana-lyq said this to Me: I will love you even when no one else does. even if im like a bugging pest. I know I wont give up on you this time. make wise decisions because the road's still so long for you to walk.

Navindren, i've sort out everything. It's really isn't worth continueing this r/s. It would only hurts even more. Nothing last forever.. So many more years ahead of us, leaving for th good & better. Consider about this. Give me a reply asap.

2009-08-22T23:57:00.000-07:00

Current mood music: Broken heart-ed girl by Beyonce

Headed over to PM Mac around in th noon.
Meet up with Lexuan, Justina & Jiayu.
Fyi: I with 4 guys uh? Pajiao la.
Waited for Justina to knock off from work.
Slacked @ JWstadium till around 4pm+.
Lol, Jiayu says she'll call me in th middle of th night @ 3am.
They went off while Me & Lexuan headed over to Jp.
Catch th movie 'where got ghost' @ 6pm.
After th movie, walked around Jp and bought Mummy a top from G2000.
Saw 2 dresses i love! Gonna save up and get it.
Hsh around 11pm.

My birthday? My birthday??? This year sucks to th core larhxzx. Arsh!! Fuck th world, fuck up everything. Argh!

2009-08-22T11:09:00.000-07:00

Back?

Changed my blogskin, seems familiar? Ha, one of mine super long ago blogskin. Still working on it, might be inserting haloscan in soon. Btw, lost some of th links, do tell me if i miss out yours. (ps)

Sianxzx.. Tests are just next week = 100% cmi. We'll see, laugh at my wonderful results! Oh yeah) Diana is super sweet! She wrote a letter to me and gave me a hand made cute lil thingyi. Appreciate alot sweet'z, love you! :)

Well.. I don't need a guy who places his gf last in th list. Which girl would wants, right? Roll on th floor and laugh. You wasn't there when i need someone th most, you wasn't th one there for me, it was ______. Like hur arshxzx.
'eh fuk lah k bye' = woah nice one :)

Screw blogger, having problems uploading pictures, pictures soon ok. Kk, till here.

Have you ever loved and lost somebody

2009-08-21T08:23:00.000-07:00

God, i pray to you everyday.
Do you hear me crying and screaming for you to come to me, save me, help me?

I've gotta be stronger than this

2009-08-20T23:34:00.000-07:00

Drag myself out of bed today and went for school. Everything just doesn't seems to go right. But well, life still goes on.. Damn, gonna flunk that paper, whatever! Feel so screwed. Blah, th most embarassing part was, i cried in school, in th middle of nowhere. Stop asking me why, i really don't know why!

Thanks Sarmira GF, you're th best, i love you ^^ You were th one there for me when i need someone th most, you were there for me always. Dearest Hun, thank you for everything. Eh, i love laughing at you know! Silly girl<3

Life is sucha biath hur.
Huhu.

Krystal's sick

2009-08-19T13:43:00.000-07:00

Yeah, still leaving my blog down, but decided to post. Went to visit Doctor.Veronica.Tay once again today. She gave me 2 day MC. Rotted at home for th whole day. Shucks, i didn't studied, gonna flunk everything. There's a test tomorow, should i go for school or stay on MC?

All these while...

2009-08-17T23:13:00.000-07:00

Sarmira told me: 'you're stronger than this Gf, love you'

It's true that good things takes time,
but great things happen in a blink of an eye.

Well, i typed and backspace everything.
Why no one understands?
This wasn't what i expected.

Big girls don't cry.
For whatever i'm gonna face, i gotta be strong.

what hurts the most, was being so close.

2009-08-16T20:52:00.000-07:00

2nd post of the day

Can i know, how many people in this world meant what they says? How many meant it when they say that you're their only? How many really meant it when they said that they love you, their one and only. How many?

Can you differentiate who really cares about you through their expression? How many really meant it when they look into your eyes saying they care about how you feel? How many actually care for you, brave the sun and rain to be there for you? How many then?

Do you feel secure when he doesn't really bother lil things of you? How many can really feel it when he/she can't even sense that there is something wrong with you? How many can really feel secure when he or she can't even give you relevant solution to your troubles then? How many????

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Where were you when i need someone th most? Why don't you understands my feelings, how i feel? Instead, you feels that i'm sucha pain. Alright then.. Have you ever know how hurt i feels, both emotionally & physically.

For all i know, love is full of question marks. There're no boundaries for love, neither do it have. When they say forever, do you believe it? When they promise you a forever, do you trust?

Bleeding evol

2009-08-16T13:46:00.000-07:00

Omg! I know my posts are boring you guys to death! Haha, super wordy here. Will get th pics upload asap. Me v lazy lahsxzx.

Drinking session last night. Alright, 1 Whisky first followed by 2 bottles of Heiniken. Okay, i should really don't deny that my drinking skills suck ballxzx. Haha, but i wasn't drunk ok. Ton and went home around 11am this morning.

Gah, i'm lagging behind time lehxzx. Nabeh one lor, so many assignments and pw. Damn it, stress. *faints* Gonna buck up before i lose out. Gambateh Krystal'z! :)

Lastly, Happy Birthday Winnie,NgWeiLing! :)

Heh, my retarded face.
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Ciao.

It's a love story Baby just say yes

2009-08-13T22:43:00.000-07:00

Aww, 4 days away from blog.
Life is...
So far so good.

Firstly, truck loads of assignments undone.
Secondly, school is getting on my nevres.
Thirdly, hate school la, quit quit!

Someone please intro me jobs, need $_$ urgently.. I wish my dead gastric goes away now. I hope someone will buy me shaker fries now! :O I want to eat donut empire! Hope H1N1 struck me plox. I need to get into a JC. I need to do my parents and of course my lovely baby too. Krystal is going to do good, Krystal is going to be good.

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This is for someone ^^ :

You're candy coated, th sweetest ever. You're so adorable and lovely! You're th best of th best and th bestest! You're hot, yes, hotest! You're one in an infinitive! You're th light to my soul. You're th key to my heart & survival. You're my everything, everything that i've yearn for in my whole life. You're th best and sweetest gift i've ever recieved from heaven.

When i first met you, you caught my eyes, i find you kind of, sexy. I've got this kinda feelings for you. After a few days, i realised i had a crush on you. My heart starts to melt, every step of you getting closer to me, my heart tickles and skipped a heartbeat.

On th second day of us attached, i'll never forget this day. Being hugged in your arms, th most beautiful moment. Your warmth was undescribeable. I didn't thought of much things. Like, planning and thinking of th future ahead of us and everything. All i know was, i need you.

As we moved on further, my feelings for you grew deeper and deeper each day, it's an undescribleable feeling. No words can express how much you meant to me, i love you so so very much, i realised i can't take a day without you.

You picked me up from where i fell, you was there throughout everything with me, brave th rain nor shine. You cared for me and took care of me like a Baby, i feel so pampered by you, so much loves! :)

I love you more and more each and everyday. You're th very first one i would sacrifice so much in my life. I wouldn't bother much in a r/s in th past, i don't deny. This time with you, everything felt so real and nice. You were all i ever wanted.

As days goes by day by day.. Time flies so fast. And now, we're almost going a year, and i can never ever believe it. Like, woah! Hearts you many!

Though many people like erh hem and co are trying to break us up, but they failed. No matter how much we quarrelled, no matter what happened, we were still a piece together after everything. We've never stopped caring for each other no matter what, not even a second. How much we loved each other, and it's not gonna change, right Baby? Nothing can bring us down, nothing will ever tear both of us apart. I won't give up till my very last breathe. So people, try harded to bring us down if you want! :O

I'm sorry for all my stupid mistakes, attitude and unreasonable quarrellings. In th end of everything, i realise we're quarrelling over nothing. We shall never quarrel again, i hope.. Let's forgive & forget each other. But somethings, it stays stagnant in my mind, i just can't get it off.. But i'll try my very very best.

I appreciate everything you've done for me. You're th best damn thing that have happened in my life. I'm clinging on the lifetime promise you gave me. Never leaves me, i need you. I love you to th max.

i wanna be with you forever,
make me your last,
will you?

Hey hunny its me:D

2009-08-10T07:07:00.000-07:00

When i caught sight of you,
my eyes couldnt look away,
my ears could only here your voice,
my i couldnt feel my body,
I could not twitch my nerves,
by the time i could think my next move
i lost my heart to an angel.

Once i got you,
i only could keep you to myself.

was thinking of these while u doing stuff with the cat.
heres another one i thought of,

bee you know ur my sun and moon.
Sun
when your happy ur smile so bright i can barely open my eyes.
when your sad the skys cover your beautiful face.
when you want to kill me, you just have to stop shining at me.
some parts of the days your so hot you melt my heart.

Moon.
When your satisfied or happy your so pretty during the night.
when your angry you send the tides over me.
When im with you i cannot feel myself, you make me have no gravitational force.

Theres a reason why i cant leave you.
out of the millions of reason this is one of them,
Can earth stop rotating around the sun?
Its stop when the sun dies.
If the sun dies, the earth dies.
Without you i cant be alive.
I need your warmth everyday to keep me breathing.

I seldom talk about god to you. but i have always been grateful to him for creating you.
Your the prettiest most attractive stunning dazzling women i have ever met in my life.

Hope you like it bee...

Thanks sooo much for today enjoyed it. just dun so sensitive, your tides becomes sunami. cannot breathe liao.
hehe. Love you babe. MMMMMUACKS

It's gonna be love

2009-08-09T10:03:00.000-07:00

,

Great gfs! Mira, Me, Fiqah = (L)

Jiaaaawen ah! :)

Huining bunny!(L)

,

Dance events picS:

Tabtab!(L)

Yingxuaaaaan!:D

Jiating Girlfee :)

What a pose -.-

,

Happy Birthday Singapore!
Cheers ^^
Lol, exact time should be 8.22pm.
Advance okkk.

Friday's dance event went quite well.
Cheers ^^

Yesterday was super busy canxzx.
Silly Baby, love youuuuuu. Baby came up to my house and Mummy cooked lunch for him. Aftermath, he slept like a pig on my bed!.. I did my assignments and edit some of my pw while he was sleeping. My Baby is super cute oh! Snore like a pig, love seeing him sleep, so lovely. Around 6pm, Baby woke up and had dinner at my house tgt. Slack till around 730pm, send Baby home in bus.

Took a train home after sending Baby. Then.. Some stuffs happened which is v suay can. Gotta go get Darling from Baby's house.. I was on th train, at Batok alr. Alighted, cab down to Baby's house. Got Darling stuffs and everything, cab home again.

She was fine till around 11pm, she started vommitting.. I couldn't find any 24h vet, so waited.. She was super weak couldn't even walk.. She slept beside me on my bed thru th whole night.

Woke up today around 730am, she started vommitting again.. Argh, i didn't slept last night. Eyes drooping, should i bring her to th vet? She seems better, she could walk and jump a lil. But.. All vets open @ 9am, damn.
*sulk*

She's currently lying on my lap sleeping.
Darling, hang on there alright.
Love youuuu.

like-a-star

2009-08-07T06:26:00.000-07:00

Hixzx! :)
Thought for a night, how much i say myself, it's not gonna help.
So God told me, no matter what, never gives up.
Try your best, do your best.
Nothing is impossible, complete your marathon.
I feel much better of not dwelling myself.
But it would really hurts if i hear any people says i dance like shitty.

Well..

Actually, i'm a lil late alr.
Suppose to assemble in school @ 6.30am.
Ha!
It's ok i guees?
I've done my own make-ups.
Have to help th Juniors on make up later on.

Going off alr.
Wish me lucks!
I hope i can really do well! :)

Lastly, thanks everybody for th encouragement!
Mummy bought me my favourite donut empire!
Huining, Yunqian and more.
(hearts)

Tata,

I don't want to know, i'm ok with this silence.

2009-08-05T23:29:00.000-07:00

I'm not in mood for anything.
School sucks.
I'm so screwed, damn.

Weakling, heavy eyebags.
Krystal, you sucks.

My dear hand, fcuk off pls.
Fcuking screwed me up.
I felt so useless, so damn freaking useless.
I danced th ugliest, i'm spoiling th whole dance or rather, i spoilt it.
dui bu qi
Hey, i really don't wanna dance.
I hate it, i hate myself..
WHY WHY WHY

Yingxuan, thanks for comforting today. ^^
Encouragement from my dearest Huining! (hearts)
W , Y and co :)

i thought i was strong all along, just this moment, i fell back
why does tears keep dropping
why am i so sad
tell me, why

Twenty-seven-more-days to my birthday!

2009-08-03T23:44:00.000-07:00

Bloggy, soon soon..
Tomorow alright.
Busy girl in action these few days.
Hand injured till..
Upcoming dance event again on th 7th August, this Friday.
Hand, please recover real soon..
God, bless me.
Goodnight.

Saving me

2009-07-31T08:34:00.000-07:00

Hiiiii.
Currently in school.
Tsk.

Gonna tank till around 10pm later.
Dance event, de-brief and everything.
I'm dread tired alr. :(
Can't imagine later on, drop dead..

i never meant to start a war
you know i never wanna hurt you
don't even know what we're fighting for
why does this love always feel like a battlefield
-
~~get your armours ready for th battlefield~~
imissyou

Till here.
Tata.

Life is short, b'cos th music won't last.

2009-07-30T20:47:00.000-07:00

It's just another tough day.
I realise i'm lagging behind time.
hurry...run...
Take a breath, i'll pull myself together.

School, dance, dance.
Life had been hectic and tiring.

Yay, Lyrical Jazz changed to Street Jazz.
Woots, what's up, it's freaking damnly cool!
Watch me! (H)

Someone buy me Lady Gaga's concert ticket please! :(
Omg, totally insane! (H)
Give it to me manxzx.
I'll rock love rock love rock love you!

I miss my Darling! :(
I'll be bringing her home tomorow. (L)
Darling, deng wo ma!
-.-

So much assignments left undone.
All my tests cmi.
Why is my life like this, God?
Could you please make my life better, God?

So much things going thru in my life.
I'm never gonna fall again, never.
where's your courage krystal
I'm going firm and strong.

_____
can you seriously stop shooting me in dance,
did i did anything to you?
Hello, i don't owe you a living.
irritating shit.

God, bless me..

2009-07-28T17:09:00.000-07:00

Krystal is really really really lazy to update her bloggy!
*smack you,krystal lazy pig*

Was seriously lazy to blog for th past few days.
So sorry for that! :S
Photos, i'll upload soon.

Brought Darling out on last Sunday.
Misses her damn lot can!
But sometimes, she's really a pain in my ass. :O
*opps*

Btw, had a test yesterday and today.
Conclusion: Both tests confirm flunk till, very very bad.
*sulk*

Street jazz, Jazz Lyrical, Hip-hop.
Seriously, which one should i join and go for?
Tried out Jazz lyrical today, it's like..
We had street jazz & hip-hop together with us sharing one hall.
Theirs are like so much more chio.
Rah, which one!!!?
Someone tell me which should i choose please.. :S

Wanted to go over to see Darling today, just now..
But decided to come home and head to gym.
And look, i'm stucked infront of th comp once again.
Shucks, i still have projects to rush later on..
*slaps*

Seriously, i really feel like cutting my hair.
Hmmm..

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Lindsay Lohan!
This haircut?

or

Carrie-underwood.
This???

or

Should i just leave my hair in th way it is now?
But my frigging fringe is freaking irriatating.

what what what what what
which which which which which
how how how how how

It's been past an hour since i'm home.
I wanted to go to gym, but seriously, i damn lazy to..
Should i stay at home and do my projects, or should i go?

-

Sometimes, i feels that my life is full of question marks.
So many mysteries God gave us to solve it on our own.
So many puzzles, so many..
That God wants us to figure it out and fixed it ourselves.
God believes in us, God has faith in us.
But i just don't know why, i don't have faith in myself..
Sometimes, how i wish i'm God too..
Oh shucks, i'm seriously dreaming too far.

I'm stucked with so many problems.
Please, stop coming to me and telling me your problems.
I'm already stucked with mine, how am i suppose to help you?
I'm sincerely sorry..

Sometimes i wished i could find someone who could understand me.
Someone who'll be there for me 24/7.
Someone who is a call away.
Someone who could help me out of all my problems/troubles.
Someone who could make me happy.
Someone who could dine with me.
Someone who wouldn't betray..
Someone who could keeps my secrets.
Someone who could..
Someone..

God, am i asking too much?

God told me to hold on and peservere till th end

2009-07-23T23:57:00.000-07:00

(posted on 24July, 12:13AM)

I miss those long ago times Baby,
I miss going to ECP every Saturday and roller-blade together.
When can we go again? ):
It's been so long..

-

For th first time i actually really quite liked school. :O
Took a cab down to school with Mummy around 9pm+.
Was like seriously super late for school.
Lessons was quite alright.
Had dance @ 3pm.
Dance was fun, though quite sad and dissapointing.
It's like i've wasted my past one year, i just wanted to dance, i just wanted a role in that dance, can't i? I know God, what's mine will be mine, what's not mine will not be.. At th end of everything, just smile and let it pass thru.
After dance, Me Tab Winnie Yunqian and co stayed back to clean up th dance studio.
I'm like their hero *giggles* chey!
Cockcroaches everywhere and stuffs, eeeyer! *sulk*
Left school around 6pm+, headed to Jp to buy milk for my Darling.
She was injured :( *cry my heart out*
Winnie came to meet me and played with Darling. :)
Headed over to Gigi's place around 8pm+.
Her cat v dao can. Gigi ah! *boo face*
Must be like my cat so huo puo ke ai mah! :P
Left her house around 9pm+.
Headed back to Hafeez's house and put Darling there.
Will be taking her home tomorow. (misses&luvs)
Home around 11pm.

Gosh, my assignments are all not done!
*well done you stupid Krystal*
Blah, should i do it?
*bang your damn head on th wall dear pig*
Nah, i think i'll head to bed.

It's lady gaga!
Should i go for this haircut?
Comments please.
T-you, *smiles widely*

Club with me and we'll dance th night out

2009-07-22T15:22:00.000-07:00

School = dog faeces
Like duh! *sulk*
Bored.
I miss my Baby & Darling. :(

♥Navin's,
it's been 292days baby!
You're so charming my lil Honey >(L)
Luv you ^^ (:

Yeah, i came across this image.
Cute? (:

Still young, so much things i could do, so much things i want to do, but sometimes, i just wished i could..

*mood out*

Running away from reality?

2009-07-20T23:03:00.000-07:00

I've been really running around for these 3 days.
I hate it, i didn't studied..
Well, fk my life.
I'm really really trying to aprreciate my life and figure it out.
But god, why just i can't?..
Hate this, hate myself, damn it.

Gonna start schooling tmr again.
Fk life.

Darling!(misses&luvs)

If there's no trust, where's th love?

2009-07-17T23:43:00.000-07:00

When minutes turn to days and years
When mountain falls, i'll still be there
Holding you until th day i die

Went to meet Crystal & Andrew @ bl pool around 3pm.
Cab to Aunty's house after 2 games with Crystal, it was a draw.
Alot of things happened, ya whatever.
and all i thought was only you
Went to Hafeez's house to get back my kitten darling!
She stinks my socks oh! Misses! (L)
Head to Crystal's house aftermath.
Dinner there.
Went home to put darling around 9pm+.
Headed over to IMM around 10pm with Crystal.
Milk tea @ Mos burger, talked about all the feelings and confusion..
all about you, i just don't know why i keep avoiding you
Headed over to my house then.
Currently Crystal is playing with darling and i'm blogging here.
Shall go play with them.

It's like as if you've played with my heart, cheated my feelings.

Inside your heaven

2009-07-16T16:01:00.000-07:00

Hmmm..
What should i blog?
Dear diary,

Toxic

2009-07-15T23:57:00.000-07:00

(posted on 16th July; 12:29AM)

Super unglam :S

MJ's unglam :D

Ghostly :O

Sarmira MJ'(L)

Hey fivesome love love sweeties!

& Last but not least, my junior darling! (L)

-

Time checked: 12:17AM
Okay, took quite a time to upload all these photos.
Miss all of euu love loves!^^
I'm blogging over here, with my EL project and PW done.
Tried to do my math, but i can't figure out a damn shit.
Gave up and came blogging.
So here i'm, hixzx.
Today's M.T test = cmi,tyvm
Was caught up in th morning's heavy pour rain.
Freezing in school.
Ok, school is really bored today.
Home and slept till around 6pm.
Baby came my house around that time and left around 8pm.
Aftermath, chiong projectwork all th way.
Had dinner only around 11pm+.
I miss Baby truck loads. :(
Luv u Hun!

We don't know what's th future ahead of us.
As we walked down th path of our lives,
we tends to thinks,
is there something really called 'forever'?

tonton

2009-07-14T23:58:00.000-07:00

Hiiiiii.
Currently done doing my assignments, but not projectwork(s).
EL&PW, it's gonna kill.
School is always th same, nothing new.
After school, went to see Junior Darling!
Took alot of pictures of her, but super lazy to upload. :O
She remembered me, she kept biting me and meowing at me.
Miss you lots darling! (L)(L)(L)^^
Played with her for around pathetic 15mins, Hafeez brought it back.
Thanks for helping me to takecare of her for th time being.
Seriously, have to find a way to keep her at my house.
So i can see her everyday! (misses)
Home around 3pm, slept till 6pm.
Baby came and cooked ommelette for him. :)
Dearest Mummy then bought us dinner around 7pm.
Bomb 2 meals at a go, fatty shucks.
Left my house around 8pm, send Baby home.
Home around 10pm.

Wordy post?
I'll blog pictures up real soon.
Have been camwhoring today in science lab with Sarmira MJ'
Okay, i want to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep!
Caician all.

No boundaries

2009-07-13T23:51:00.000-07:00

It's gonna be a long post.
Chill out dudes.

Today = happy day!
Thanks baby, he makes my life everyday.
Luv you so much Hunny.
School as usual.
After school, baby came over to my house.
Slack, went out to have dinner.
Aftermath, baby went to reborn his tail.
Super hot and cool can! (jealous)
Bus to his house then lepak.
Hsh around 10pm.

Currently chionging all assignments.
V tired can, want TOH alr.
But still, hanging on..

To someone:
i hate myself for trusting you in th past
i hate myself for believing in you
i hate it, i hate you
you makes me felt like a total fool
i just knew what you've talked about me in th past
i can't imagine something like that actually came out from your mouth
deadly dissapointed
i don't need you in my life either
double headed snake people would think of you
i hate you for all of my life
how could you've said such a think about me, when it's not true..
it hurts deepy to know and find out
how could you..
my love for you died when i knew, it died totally, no more
i just realise, i don't need you as a friend, you brought me pains
pain in my ass, what a bitch
fcuk off

-

I'm really happy and statisfied with what i've.
Cherish everything you've people.
You don't know how lucky and fortunate you're.
People in Africa are dying at th age of youngest 3.
How poor thing are they do you know?
They do not have proper food and clean water.
But, what about Singaporeans?
You guys have all th necessities.
Luxury, leave it aside.
Be contented of what you've, don't take things for granted.

I'm unfilial, i don't deny.
I ask for more everytime, when i've things which are enough.
I should be contented.
Yes, i should be.
Appreciate.

God knows what we need, and not what we want.
It's all fated and destined.
God decided how our life should be, what challengs we're gonna face and what stages we've to go thru before we were born.
He wants th best of us, he's trying his best to whatever he could.
He's always watching over us, brave th sunshine rain with us, be with us there thru it all.
He's th one who making things possible for us thru th ups and downs, he's always there and guided us along th path way may it be good or bad.
He was always there, i believe.
Yes, he saw how we suffered.
It's a stage in everybody's life that each have to go thru.
Bible.

Believe in God.
Pray to him every night, he'll answer to your prayers if you stay faithful.
He'll make whatever things possible if he could.
He's always there.

Okay, shall blog till here.
Have to go back to do my works.
Buhbye,

I miss you bee

2009-07-12T18:53:00.000-07:00

Okay, heading to Hafeez's house now.
Putting Kitten Darling there till tmr.
I'll miss you cutie, musn't be naughty over there ok!
:( :'(

Shall go now, have to rush my assignments later when i'm back.
All untouched, grr!

-edit-

Back from going over to Hafeez's house.
Cab down to his house.
His cat super huge can..
Talk about how my Junior Darling is and all, then left there.
Super miss her now can!!!:'(<3
Bus to CG.
Top up ez-link and stuffs.
Hsh around 930pm.

Currently super lazy to do my assignments.
I guess i'll head to bed straight.
Seeya all.

Bring me to a better fantasy

2009-07-11T23:57:00.000-07:00

(posted on 12th July, 1:43AM)

Junior Darling!<3

Hidayu, hope you're doing fine in your new school.
Takecare alright, we'll meet up soon. :)
misses

Huining, long time pic. ^^

-

Like finally, blogger is able to upload pictures.
Junior Darling pics are up, effing cute right!? ^^
She super naughty and gangster can.
Jump down from my bed and school's desk.
Tsk.. -.-

Shall blog.. Yeah?
Yup, town with family today.
Know what?
Brought Junior Darling along with us to town.
She's super naughty can! Troublesome! :@
Cab down to Takashimaya around 5pm+.
Walked around Fareast & Taka, didn't see any stuffs i liked.
Settled down around 8pm to have our dinner.
Ate at Ajisen Ramen, yummy yummy!
Th meal costed around $70+. :O
Aftermath, it was around 9pm, cab down to Woodlands from town.
Slack at Baby's house till around 11pm+.
Then, put both Baby and junior Darling to sleep.
Took th 12am train, home around 1am.

Junior Darling is with Baby now..
One thing, i over fed her! :(
Sorry Darling!
I didn't know..
She seems so weak now..
Sorry!!! :'(
Luv euu ok cutie pie ^^
Misses!

You may skip this part :O
You left me, i didn't i supose..
Whatever it is, it's for th good i guess.
Better in time yeah?
I felt so stupid for believing in you.
I felt so angry with myself for trusting you.
I hate myself for that.
You betrayed me in th end..
I don't need you.
Like seriously, don't mention, don't bother alright.
Hen tao yan tao yan tao yan tao yan tao yan ni!

Thanks Kx & Lx for everything.
(hearts)

Going off to bed now.
Nights all.
Buaibuai,

Littlest thing

2009-07-06T22:59:00.000-07:00

Hi, i'm here again to update this dear deadly blog.
Decided to do a short update.
So yeah, life is as usual, nothing much..
Z, blogger doesn't allows me to upload photos!? -.-

New junior baby!
A kitten was found by Anson.T, she was being abuesd by a toddler.
How crude eh!?
Joseph bought her cats' milk.
they says she was unlikely to survive
I took it back home then, fed her played with her gave her warmth.
She looks so much more happier now i guess? (smiles widely)
She's now with Baby.
Grr, miss her can!
Duh, i miss my Babypiggy too!(L)

School tomorow again.
Sibei sian can.
Ok, going off to my lalaland now.
Tata,

Oh my Baby is so sweet

2009-06-30T23:09:00.000-07:00

School was much better today than i expected.
Homeworks are starting to come in, shit ok.
After school, went home to bathe and all.
Bus down to fetch Baby @ Np after his school.
He's like oh-so-super hot! :D
Bus to Baby's house then.
Got his 7 jeans and went to alter at th don't know where place. -.-
I altered my skinny too.
Was finding for a kind shop who would sew my dance shoes and get paid.
Unfortunately, all of 'em said they don't do th service..
Aw, how sad, i really don't know how to sew! :S
Aftermath, went back to Baby's house.
Had dinner there and left around 9pm, then headed home.

I've to study study study.
I've to do some research and read some science notes before i head to bed.
I must study study study.
Mug mug chiong chiong chiong.
I want to get th science combinations i want for next year.
Books teachers worksheets, here i come!

Baby, i miss you so much..
How i wish you're right beside me now, put me to sleep then hug me.
Th next morning when i first open my eyes, i see you.
So blissful.. :)
<3

When you look me in my eyes

2009-06-29T22:49:00.000-07:00

TiAmo hot fudge choco sweety pie! <3

School was fine today.
Gah, new teachers for almost every subs.
Z, gotta start working hard and buck up in my studies.
0720am-140pm: School.
Bee came to fetch me after school. :)
Opposite Blss with Kaixiang, Andrew, Xavier, Justin.L and co.
Got screen. -.-
Okay, cab to my house aftermath.
Ate at my house, slack and all.
Bus down to Bee's house around 7pm.
Went to shop around erh don't know where?
Bee bought me two tops. ^^
Thanks Bee, appreciate it alot ok. (L)
Took a bus to Bee's house, aftermath train home.

Tomorow's school till 240pm.
I plan to go to bed everyday around like 11pm?
Lol!?-.-
It's 1045pm now, almost 11pm.
Shall pack up my stuffs and head to bed real soon.. :)
Ok, till here then.
Ciao.

Could you see th sadness and pain in my eyes?

2009-06-28T22:47:00.000-07:00

Saranghaeyo,

Got up @ 10am today, went over to see Doctor @ 200+.
It costed seventy-four(!???)
Aftermath, took 187 down to Woodlands.
Went up to Bee's house.
Waited for him to get ready and all, went to his house nearby.
Bought stuffs and went back to watch Movie tgt.
Ate fish soup and left his house around 8pm, then train home.

School is starting tomorow, alot of things are coming up.
This means lesser time to meet Bee.. :(
Well, i seriously gotta buck up in my studies and stop being sucha let down.
I need to go to a JC(!)
Ok, hope i won't be late for school and school goes well tomorow! :)

Going off to bed alr all.
Tata.

I don't care what they say, i'm in love with you, they try to pull me away but they don't know th truth

2009-06-27T23:53:00.000-07:00

(this picture is taken on Anson's birthday)

Happy 19th Birthday Joseph Botak! :)
Have fun serving NS. Takecare..

Cab down to Bee's house around 2 in th noon.
He got change and all, took 178 down to Bl.
Aftermath, headed to Aunty's house.
Bee & Me, Kaixiang, Anson, Joseph, Andrew, Justin.L, Gundu, Xavier, Guohua, Jaymiane, Liangzhong.
Anson's Dad then drove us to Janlan Kayu to eat roti prata.
It was Yummy. ^^
Thanks Aunty & Uncle. :)
It was around 7pm by then, continued our outing to Pasir Ris Park.
Joseph's birthday is unqiue, celebrating @ PRP's playground.
Doing volunteer work you say? Helping th kids to push th merry-go-round.
Some of them flew out, some of them were screaming like mad, laughs!
Around 8pm, Uncle drop Bee & Me down @ Woodlands while th rest headed back to Aunty's house. Had fun... :D
Went up to Bee's house for awhile, ciao around 9pm then train home.

I realise i kept spending money on taking cabs.
Seriously, super lazy to take public transport.
Have to walk to take th mrt, th weather is like zZz!
Still, squeeze here and there, like, DUH! -.-
I seriously have to stop wasting money on taking cabs.. :S
Have to start saving money to buy 9th Monthsary's gift. :)

Btw, i've a video of all of them playing th merry-go-like thingy, while th pictures are with Andrew & Anson, will take it from them asap and upload it.
Stay tune for th pictures.
Nights all readers.

Wish you were here to kiss my pain away

2009-06-26T18:23:00.000-07:00

Someday i'll wish upon a star,
and wake up where the clouds are far behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops,
away above th chimney tops,
that's where you'll find me..

-

If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that's ok.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender loving care,
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
And never look back..

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there..

If I am away, would you still think of me,
And wished that you could hold me now.
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
All the way ...

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true,
Would you say that you always be there,
To kiss my pain away,

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true,
Would you say that you always be there,
To kiss my pain away,

Would you be there ..... for me ...

Cry on my shoulder

2009-06-26T00:57:00.000-07:00

1257am
step over me, and see my dead body
i need someone now, i need to cry to someone
can someone call me pls

0509am/edited
i can't get to sleep
i feel like as if i'm th worst thing on earth
i can't take it
it feels like as if i'm tearing apart
how i wish i could call someone and cry out now
my heart aches, breathe slow and stay strong
big girls don't cry, dry your tears with love

0601am
you was there with me throughout everything
you stood by me no matter what
a shoulder to cry on, you dry my tears
you was always there
i love you way too much to be measured
crying, crying out th pain i feel
it's hurting that i've hurt you and seeing you hurt & suffer
nothing could describe how i'm feeling now
you'll always be a part of me, you'll always be my baby
iloveyou

When darkness turns to light, it ends tonight.

2009-06-25T23:09:00.000-07:00

Current: Brother acc me go night cycling now! :(
Song: Th climb.

Y, you stood by me no matter what, thru th sun and rain, you were th best. <3 P, you = silly girl, thanks for being there and for lending a shoulder to cry on. (L) E, you've done th most for me, i appreciate everything you've done alot. (L) W, thanks for everything. :)
I've never left you guys, not even once. I'm always here..

I'm a geek.
Ok, shall start blogging.

Saturday
It was... cousins outing day!^^
Had a great day with all my Sweeties!(L)
Cab to Sengkang.
Spend 5h+ there doing shopping arcade eat play slack.
Home around 12am.

Sunday
It was... cousins outing day again! ^^
Sat was Daddy's side, Sun was Mummy's side.
Went Grandpa's house, play slack eat shopping with those cuties pies! :)
Home around 11pm.

Monday
Dance!^^
IdanceIlovedance!^^
Got back interest in dancing, back in dancing :)
Took over th 5 seniors on drum with Yunqian, Winnie, Me and two other.
Cool can.
But not drum, plate instead.
Aww, how sad.. -.-

I seriously forgotten what happened on Tues & Wed. -.-
If i didn't forgot, i did went Town on one of th days.

Today
Dance again!^^
Weees, rehersal for kaleidorama! :)
After dance, went to meet Sister @ Je library.
Lunch at th cafe there.
Aftermath, headed to borrow books.
Went home and slept from 2pm+ till 9pm. :O
Woke up and had my dinner.
Maple till now, blogging.
Going back to mapling after this post.

Ok, shall upload Sat's picture now.
>>>

This is how we cheat :D

Unsuccessful group photo -.-

One in a millon (L)

(ignore my unglam face)

I never did expect it would hurt like this..
Sorry Sis, i love you.

P/s: What have i done wrong again? I don't know anything, all i know is i love you. How about you?

Hope i can keep you much longer

2009-06-19T23:53:00.000-07:00

LG, life's good.

Its been 2weeks since i last updated.
I realise i've lost my passion for dance.
I've been on 'MC' for th past few dance lessons.
Shucks.
Where should i start blogging from?
.......
Or shall i let th pictures do th talking?
I guess so, i'm too lazy to blog.
I'll blog proper post(s) from tomorow onwards ok.
Okay, shall let th pictures do th talking now then.

Check out my unglam studying look! -.-

Brisky, i've yet to take picture with Dukey boy. :)

Till here then.
Tata all.

Your lips like; sugar

2009-06-06T21:51:00.000-07:00

Happy Bleated 8th Month Bee
I want nobody nobody but you *claps*claps*
I'll change parts that you dont like, just give me sometime...
Promise ok? I love you!

My blog is a week untouched, was busy and lazy.
Why should one gossip behind one?
Please la, no life can, kindly f off and die.
Well, shall do a short update for now.

Had been spending everyday with Bee.
Went Town for 8th Month celebration, had Sakura buffet.
Lan today @ Beauty World with Bee, mapling together.
Me level up alot ok, just abit behind Bee.
I'll chiong tonight, watch me ok Bee. :)
Th rest i'm lazy to update about it, home late almost every night.
Bee! I've alot of your unglam photos. Heh:D
Shall upload them tomorow or so.

I'm missing my Baby right now nanana.. :(

You're my whole wide world Bee

2009-05-30T23:37:00.000-07:00

He's like a star. (L)

Check out Anson & Joseph's act cute poses. :D

Happy 14th Birthday Anson Tan :)
Thanks for helping in my problems and all those damn shit and stuffs. Do go back to school and continue studying, be good ok!

Had a great day today @ ECP today.
It's been a month plus since i last went there.
Woke up around 830am, prepared and stuffs, headed to Woodlands.
Meet Bee under his block, took 178 down to Boonlay.
Went up to Anson's house, birthday boy. :O
Lexuan, Kaixiang Joseph, Andrew, Yizhan, Gun, Bee & Me.
His Daddy drove us all together there with his Mummy down to ECP.
Ride bike, ate @ Mac, (swam), gambled, chill.
Around 8pm, Uncle drove us all back, drop Bee & Me down at Woodlands as Bee is having his probation while they continued back to Bl.
Went up to his house and stayed till 9pm+.
Aftermath, took 178 back home.
Home around 11pm.

Piggy Bee is sleeping like a pig right now, didn't pick my calls.. :(
Lol, i'm seriously used to it, ha.
I miss you Bee! (L)

I love you too much, it shows, all my emotions go out of control, Breathe slow

2009-05-29T09:41:00.000-07:00

Send Baby to school today in th morning. ^^
Went over to his house and his Mummy drove us to NP.
Had lunch together with Bee & co.
Stayed with him throughout in his classes, you jealous? :O
Bee's school ended around 5pm+.
Bus to Woodlands and had dinner together @ CWP.
Aftermath, accompanied Bee to cut his hair and stuffs.
Went up to his house around 830pm.
Stayed till 9pm+ then headed home.

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

Spinning

2009-05-27T23:46:00.000-07:00

NAVINDREN S/O RAMASH.
I LOVE YOU.

I've been waiting for so long and i still have to wait

2009-05-26T22:13:00.000-07:00

You said you'll talk to me on th phone,
but where'd you go..
I miss you..
:'(

~~leavemealone~~

Stuck with each other

2009-05-25T22:23:00.000-07:00

Krystal's boy,
i miss you,
i love you.

Tomorow..
I'm going..

I'm praying hard to God every night.
God, can you hear me?
Will you answer to my prayers tomorow?
Only you can save and help me out of everything now..
Take away all my burdens pains sufferings...

ihopeimabletotakeittomorownomatterwhatitisgonnabe
I must stay strong no matter what, i know, i've to.
I won't cry, i won't..

Navin's girl,
stay strong.

I need to puff on bitch, i need a tattoo, a pledge of love, all about you and it fcuking hurts

2009-05-23T23:57:00.000-07:00

Th day you went away..

-

Was late for school on Friday.
All thanks to Crystal ah. :X
Passed my MT paper. (smile)
After school, headed back to Crystal's house.
Slack off till 6pm, then left to meet Mummy at Jp.
Had dinner and ordered Grandpa's birthday cake.
Aftermath, headed home.
Had Karaeok session with Mummy & Daddy at home first, before heading back to Crystal's house again. Lol, Daddy & Mummy = funny folks
Stayed over and ton there till 12am+.
Went out to 7-11 then, bought food and drink.
Home around 2am.

Today
12pm-4pm: Work.
Aftermath, meet Mummy Daddy Brother outside.
Was suppose to go down to ToaPahYo to support Sister.
In th end, we ended up too late.
So headed to Commonwealth area instead and had our dinner there.
Aftermath, went over to IMM.
Home around 9pm+.

Tomorow's schedule is tight. :S
Morning: Churh with Narin and co.
Afternoon-Night: Grandpa's advance 80th Birthday Celebration. :D
Gah, havent got an ideal present for Grandpa.

Will upload pictures taken another day.
busy + lazy
Till here then.
Tata.

-

Darling, i miss you so much..
I'll pray hard that everything will goes well on Tuesday.
No fear Baby, i'm here.
May it be thunder storms or wave, i'll be there for and with you through it all.
Uncondtionally luv for you, it stays no matter what.
It didnt fade nor remains th same, it increased.
I'm waiting, but dont keep me waiting too long, b'cos i miss you like mad. :)
Sweetie chocolate hot fugde pie! (L)

Where'd you go, i miss you so

2009-05-21T22:52:00.000-07:00

Sad. Devasted. Dissapointed.
Got back math, science & H.E results today..
CMI, skip it.

Crystal.T came over to my house just now around 8pm.
Slack around.
1045pm, im over @ Crystal.T's house now yo.
I hope i can wake up in time for school tomorow. :S

Shall blog till here.
Di siao her until she cannot sleep. :D

I-L-Y too Baybee♥!
Misses(!)~

I miss you Navindren

2009-05-19T23:11:00.000-07:00

Im afraid.. Im afraid.. Im afraid..
Afraid of so many things..
Where're you?.. :(

-

Today's MT paper was quite easy.
Played Restaurant City on Facebook for th whole day.
Thanks + credit Terrence for giving me some items in RC. :)

Cheer up Pj!
Stay strong, will still be there when you need me k.
Love you always.

Sigh..
Im a sober.
I feel sad..
I miss you..

-

But...

-

But...

-

But...

Dearest Phang cheered Chan up! :)
Gigi = Krystal's kai xin guo + Krystal's luvluvluv!
Krystal (L) Gigi! :D

I need you in my life

2009-05-18T23:14:00.000-07:00

Today's Math Paper 2 = CMI
Dissapointed & Devasted.
I left so many questions blank.. (sigh)
Headed home after th paper.
Around 11am, went down to Np.
Meet up with Narin and co.
Had grilled chicken chop for my lunch. :D
Aftermath, slack around.
Home around 3pm.
Slept all th way till Sister came home around 6pm.
Woke up and played Restaurant City.
Around 630pm, went out with Sister to have dinner with Mummy & Daddy.
Alright, after that headed home.
& Play Restaurant City till now. :D
I havent study for my Chinese yet..
Happy go lucky for tomorow's paper then.

-

8moredays..
I miss you alot Navindren.
I really pray hard for you everynight..
I wonder how're you doing these days..
Are you sleeping well? Are you eating well? Doing fine?
I really really really miss you alot Baybee♥
I love you.

God, answer to my prayers please..
I believe in you Lord, b'cos i know only you can help me out.
You knows what we need, and not what we want.
Please have mercy on my Dearest Boy..
I pray hard everynight, can you hear me Lord?
Lord, i can feel your pressence around me.
I know you're there trying and helping me Lord.
You're trying hard, so am i Lord.
Forgive all my sins..
I just want him to be fine, and be a happy person.
Lord.. Come.. Save me..

Emotional unstable

2009-05-17T14:10:00.000-07:00

God give. God takes. God's name be ever blessed.
Job 1:21

-

Yesterday night was fun alright.
Except for th part that Shan fat pig pangseh Me & Crystal.T and i vommited my breakfast, lunch and dinner out + orea chocolate ice-blended. (H)
6pm, headed to IMM with Crystal.T & Shan.
They never fails to make laugh ok. :D
Had Japanese food for dinner.
Aftermath, went to buy bubble tea and headed to Shan's house.
Slack around, she chased us out of her house leh(!?) > basturd sial
Super bored lah k.
I ended up vomitting while Crystal.T is calling people out.
Walaaaaaaau.
Aftermath, headed to coffeeshop and walk around like siaocharbo.
Security at there check all. -.-
It was 10pm+ by then, decided to go lepak at my house.
Ate cup noodles and do nonsense all.
She makes me laugh until i roll down my bed k. (LOL)
Ha, emotional unstable! Neh -'-
She went home around 1am+.
& I went emoing again.. :O -.-

Guess i'll be meeting up with Crystal.T later again.
Currently studying for tomorow's Math Paper 2. :D
Gah, i hope i dont screw it up and flunk it. :S

Shall blog till here.
Bye.

Right round

2009-05-16T12:23:00.000-07:00

Super long ago picture with my Bangbang.
LOL-.-

Went to th Clinic this morning to see pretty Doctor Veronica Tay.
Super troublesome, have take temperature and all b'cos of swine flu. -.-
Ha, suppose to do a blood test.
But decided to skip it.
So yeah, after collecting th medicines, off i went home.

Im still waiting Darling,
love you always!

How love set me free, survive

2009-05-15T18:27:00.000-07:00

Found some new stuffs to play with and entertain myself.
Plurk & Facebook's Mafia & Texas HoldEm Poker. :D
Brother's comp back, im gonna get back playing Maple & Gunz.

Today's paper = Suck ballxzx
Booooo!
Left with Math Paper 2 & MT Paper 2.

Me went to jog then to th gym just now around 4pm.
Got to burn down 200+ calories running th Threadmill.
Me = fat + fats
I must burn down all my fats.
How? :(

Me = water tank
I drank Mr.Bean's Soyabean, Vitagen & Apple Aloe Vera.
V thirsty, currently drinking my own saliva.
Sounds ewwwks right? LOL

Me is dying to eat Kinderjoy now. :(
Nah, i must watch on my diet and eating habits.
Im halfway burning down my fats to zero.
Can i make it? :S

K, i stinks like a pig playing in th mud. LOL
Gotta go bathe, if not my house will stinks like me.
Ha!

Will blog soon again.
Bye lovely aliens. :)

Its th 10th day without having you by my side..
11 more days to go! (L)

我不是你想像那麼勇敢

2009-05-14T13:39:00.000-07:00

The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost..

-

Life is like a butterfly?
Bullshit!

I guess im gonna flunk today's Science paper..
Gosh, i studied like mad for it know..
In th end, i didnt know how to do most of th questions.
How ridiculous!
Tuesday's Math paper 1 was still alright.
Tomorow is H.E paper.
Im so not not not gonna study for it.
Its gonna be th same, results out are still as lousy.
I tried my best, but who will believe with th shitty results i'll get back.
I give up.

Oh yeah, yesterday..
Baybee♥ was super sweet(!!!)
He did a 'doll' for me, super cute k!
He wasnt suppose to bring anything out with him, but he did, he brought that cute lil thing he did for me along with him. :)
Heh, super sweeeeeeeeeeet right! <3
Chocolate hot fudge candy coated Sweetie Piggy :D (L)!
I miss you so so so so so much now Baybee♥!

12 more days to go..
I love you more and more each day..

我好想你, 帶我走

2009-05-13T23:02:00.000-07:00

Im waiting..
13 more days
Hang on there, i've faith in you. (L)

-

Visited my BaybeePiggy♥ today!
Woke up around 530am, got prepared and stuffs. Around 6am, took train down to Baybee's♥ place. Met up with Narin, waited for Baybee's♥ Parents and his Sister. Shini, i miss you so much okay!(L) Baybee's♥ Dad drove us to th QRP.. Did all th IC stuffs and so on.. Around 830am, got in and saw Baybee♥! I tried to stop my tears, but it just rolled down.. Fcuking damnly miss him so much(!!!) :'( Sigh.. Hang on there Baybee♥.. Only have got 20mins to see and talk to him. Please dei, dont do nonsense inside.. 20 mins up.. Th microphone, speaker and lights went off.. I cried till i couldnt breathe.. Yes, th feeling of seeing him is like heaven. But th feeling of leaving him, is indescribeable, miserable, sad, heartaches.. Thanks Shini for everything, love you! Laughs, shocked that Narin cried, Lol. Aftermath, Baybee's♥ Dad drove us near my house there and we had breakfast together. Talked about Baybee♥, lazy cute piggy of mine. :) After breakfast, Baybee's♥ Dad then drop me somewhere near my house and they went off. Went home and slept till 4pm. Woke up and did my usual routines. I studied okay Baybee♥! Around 7pm, went JE library with Sister to study again. Ha, crappy Sister fatty bom bom. :D (L) Its science paper tomorow, and i manage to cover all th chaps k. Home after that.

Yesterday,
Slack with Lexuan & Kaixiang, Narin.
Played pool @ BTP.
& I got another Kinderjoy from my Dearest Girl!
Thank you so much! (L)
Aftermath, went up to Aunty's house.
Slack around, and Egg cooked me Maggie with luncheon meat.
LOL. Ha. Thanks! :)
Home around 10pm.

Baybee♥,
I miss you so much Darling! I love you more than th stars in th sky, more than th vast in th universe, = more than anything!(hearts)! Im willing to give up anything just for you, even if saving sends me to heaven.. Just hang on there Babylove, 13 more days.. I know its been hard on you, it has also been hard for all of us. Your loved ones, family, and friends. Im apart of you, you're apart of me. If you're going, take me away.. You left me here all alone and suffer by myself.. I know its gonna be hard for you and for me.. After this time, i hope you realise your mistakes, and i know you do. I've faith in you, be good inside.
trusthopelove
♥♥♥

9 days has passed..
Sleepless nights i've had, im finally super tired this time..
Broken down into pieces..
Torn after seeing how shag you're..
But life still goes on..
I've gotta be strong.

I miss you Navindren

2009-05-11T22:01:00.000-07:00

Learning to be strong..

-

Happy Birthday Song Le Xuan! (L)

Lets start blogging about yesterday.
Daddy came to pick Me & Brother around 4pm. Headed to Bukit Timah and fetch Sister from there. Daddy drove us to Novena. Dropped Sister there for her tuition while Mummy, Daddy, Brother and me went to th Novena's Newyork Skin Solution. What a bullshit and crap for facial treatment place okay! Mummy planned to sue them b'cos of some stuffs they did. (confidential) Ha, h debate was fierce and cool. Mummy shoot them like atomic bombs! LOL-.- After Sister's tuition around 7pm, headed to Queenstown area. Was looking for Q.remand.P, but couldnt locate it.. Had a feast there @ a-dont-know-where-place for Mothers' Day Celebration. Th food was super yummy alright. (: Aftermath, Daddy drove us home. 9pm+ hsh.

Today;
No school yep, preparation for MYE.
Was studying half of th day with Sister, Brother and Cousins.
Mugging like mad, managed to cover Math.
& Tomorow is Math Paper 1.
I'll do my best, i want an A2. (:

-

Th kinderjoy Lx bought for me. (L) (:

Museum Night pictures ; Pictures cum Name
Note: No form of body contact at all while taking pictures with th guys. It may look like it is, but isnt. > B'cos, still, im only devoted to Navindren!, clinging onto him, taken by him for life. Heh! (L)

Huining,(:

PhangGiGi!:D

Cassandra,(:

Super pretty malay girl!

Zhiqi,(:

Joven,(:

Romeo.

Faiz,(sec1 best buddy)

JustinLee,(:

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Okay, i guess im blogging till here.
Shall head to bed now, super tired.
sleeping without a phone call again..
Nights..

I cry in th middle of th night for th same damn thing, each and everyday, without fail

2009-05-10T14:51:00.000-07:00

Happy Mothers' Day Mummy! (L)
I teared as i wrote th letter..
So much you've done for me, yet i took it for granted.
I thank you for everything.
-raising me up
-provide me with food
-give me th best
You're th best Mummy!
Love you always.

Sorry for not updating regularly these few days.
Have been hanging out late almost everyday,
that results in i didnt have enough time and lazy to update.
K, whatever.

8thMay,
Museum night day.
I thought it would still be okay.
But it just totally sucks.
Thanks to th teachers out there alright. -.-
Mummy came..
Thank you so much Mummy. (L)
Took quite alot of pictures.
Will upload another time, no energy to do so now..
Home around 11pm.

9thMay,
Long day folks.
Out from 11am in th morning, home th next day @ 3am.
Super tiring canxzx.
Went to Aunty's house, slack with th usual people.
Around 10pm+, cab down to Bl with Joseph, Anson & Gun.
I left there around 11pm+, cab down to slack with Cousins.
Home around 3am. Slept only at 4am.

10thMay(today),
Woke up around 1pm+, still tired..
I just realised i havent studied any shit for my MYE.
Gosh, am i gonna flunk it all? I guess so..
What are my plans for today?
Pathetic, damn it.

-

imissyou,
iwannafeelyou,
imissyourvoice,
iwantyourkiss,
i..

Nothing have changed,
i still love you as much as i does.
Im still waiting,
16 more days to go..

Gambateh Krystal!
dry your tears with love

Always be my baby

2009-05-07T23:03:00.000-07:00

19moredays,

I went to your house today.
I sat by your bed, wondering where're you.. I used to sit there and watch you play dota. What about now? No more..

You promised me you would come for my museum night.
Tomorow is my museum night.
& Where're you?..

Shini, Ben, Baby's maid, & Dukey boy! (L)
Your Mum came back from KL today.
She talked to me just now for a lil while, about your Dad, you and some other related stuffs.
Your Mum shagged alot.
She's going to visit you tmr, with your Dad.

Please be good inside, and take good care of yourself.
Hope you're doing fine inside.
I miss you so so so so so much.. :'( ILY,
Dont worry about me, i guess im doing fine..

Counting down each and everyday,
I'll be fine..(:

For everything im gonna face, i've gotta be strong

2009-05-06T21:53:00.000-07:00

kukubird,
imissyousomuchsososomuch..

I miss your monkey with orange.
I miss your lips.
I miss your sweet cheeks.

I kept all th messages you sent me, i read it over and over again.. I miss th messages with 'ILY sweetie chocolate hot fudge pie'. I found something new, your voices, in my Vodafone. You sang right round for me, remember?. I recorded it, im playing it over and over again..

I miss you..
I miss your voice.
I miss th kisses you give me through phone.

I miss having you by my side.
-teach me in my studies
-guide me along in my life
-buy me chocolates
-bring me around
-late night bus rides

Im so weak without you..
How am i gonna take all these waves without you here by my side..
How am i gonna pull through all these shit..
Tell me, why

Words cant express how torn apart im now..
After so much..
I've officially broken down.
Too much pain..

I just have to continue to pretend..
I guess, if im not wrong.
Shag.

You change my whole life, and now that you're gone.
Th impact inflicted on me, is way too much.
Fret not, i guess i'll be fine..

20moredays
Baby, i stay in love with you.

How can th sun keep shining, when my whole body is crying

2009-05-05T22:29:00.000-07:00

21moredays,

Th frst picture i took and took with in my LG viewty, @ food republic.
Remember?

I went to town and meet you after your work, you send me home in 105. Remember?

Every saturday is roller-blading day @ ECP.
We took this around 7pm+, remember?

On bus to ECP, you requested to take a retarded photo, remember?

@ Civic library around 830+, remember?
& this's th last picture we took before everything..

-

Mummy just comforted me, (crying)..
Thanks Dearest Mummy. (L)

Th day that i see black in my life, i see what th world is like, which is now. Cruelity and unfair, full of bullshit and craps.
I need someone to rant to..

Big thanks to SongLeXuan(L) & ChenKaiXiang! for accompanying me today, and be there for and with me through everything.

Went Bukit Timah Plaza after school.
Went there by 52 with Lx, meet Kx and played pool together from 6pm to 7pm+.
Took Baby's cue stick home from there.
Lx Sweetheart, thanks for being there when i need someone, a shoulder to cry on. & th kinderjoy, really sweet of you, i appreciate it alot. (L) :)

Yes, i cried almost for th whole day, i dont deny that.
On th way to school, in school, way back home, on bus to BTP with Lx, during playing pool @ BTP, waiting for bus home, all th way home then, and till now..
Baybee♥, can you feel my tears? can you feel my pain?
ifyouweretocollectmytears,

Life is sucha bitch, = suck ballxzx.
B'cos..

Nobody asked me whether have i eaten.
Nobody nag at me to eat.
Nobody phone me, = no phone calls.
No sweet messages, (except for Lx's)
Nobody asked me to study.
Nobody nag at me to sleep.
No more wake up calls.
No more roller-blading every Saturday @ ECP.
No more movies @ Town.
No more going down to CWP.
No more watching you playing shrek game at CWP's timezone.
You would buy me kinderjoy or chocalately stuffs for me each time when we meet.
I went to th night market just now, th exact one. You would play th ducky gun shooting thing and get me a spongebob/hellokitty. What about now? No more..
Nobody is gonna send me home anymore, just plain lonely bus rides by myself, alone..
Where're you? Where th hell are you? Where th fcuk are you?

I wanted so much to go down under your block just now.
Pretend that you're coming down, make myself feel better.
I miss you so fcuking damn fcuking much.
I hate you, i hate you, i hate you, hate you for leaving me all alone.
FCUK FCUK FCUK FCUK FCUK FCUK FCUK FCUK
Why're you so unfair?
Sorry, emotional upset and hurt inside..

Trying to stay strong,
but i guess i wont be able to pull through everything this time.
I thought i could, i thought i was strong..
But this time, it doesnt seems to be, th feeling is like; dying..

Th last time you msged me before everything was, 1014am.
Thats when my life turn into darkness..
Must i carry on giving a fake smile?
Im smilling on th outside, but crying in th inside.

Baybee♥'s Mummy just called me, and she cried over th phone with me, cried together. Cheer up Auntie, he's gonna be fine im sure.
Ben & Shini, your Brother will be back soon, takecare of yourself & your Mum.. I'll visit you guys soon. Loves.

A day passed, and it seems like a year..
So near yet so far..
where'd you go, i miss you so.. :'(

All about you, feel th pain

2009-05-05T16:16:00.000-07:00

Everything just happened too suddenly,
when i thought everything's gonna be okay..
I was so wrong,
b'cos i lied to myself..

Damn it, you unfair.
You told me you would be there for me when i need someone,
i need someone now,
then where th hell are you now?
Your wilfuness left me all alone myself now, everything on my own.
~~independent?~~

No more sweet messages,
No more phone calls,
No more watching you playing dota,
No more watching you sleep and hear you snore,
No one asking me have i eaten,
No one to teach me Math & Science,
No one to teach me to play pool well,
No one there to nag at me to sleep and study,
No one is gonna buy me MM subway cookies,
No one is gonna buy me milo,
No one is gonna feed me eat,
so many more..

3weeks..
You make me suffer hell over you.
You've gone for th bad.
I wonder how you're doing inside now..

Too much too much too much, i cant take it..
Gonna go take a puff now.

Have you eaten?
Where are you?
Who will i run to now?

mytearsjustwontstop

Stay close, dont go

2009-05-04T23:01:00.000-07:00

ineedyoubymyside,
canyouhearmytears?

Love you so

2009-05-04T03:43:00.000-07:00

Happy 7th Anni Hunney!
You meant the whole wide world to me Baybee♥

Hixzx:
Im back over here from chankrystal-navin.bs.com
I wanna move to livejournal manxzx.
It looks so much nicer and cooler. :O
I just tried editing a skin of it, but it was an unsuccessful one.
[ouch shucks]

Checked time:
Its 3.08am now.
Just hung up th phone with Baybee♥
& I've school tomorow.
Gosh, i guess im gonna ton all th way till 6am+.
Laughs, good joke.

Friday,
Baybee♥ came over my house around in th noon. Watched Baybee♥ play dota, while i studied a lil. Dearest Mummy cooked dinner for us.
Around 9pm, left my house and headed to Jp.Planned to catch a midnight movie, but all was like shitxzx. Last minute plan; ton @ Town. Hence, took 174 to Town. Walked to Cinileisure's Monster que, played pool up till around 1am. Aftermath, headed to 7-11 and got ourself some snacks. Caught up in th middle, oh, no more train. We found out that there were midnight buses. Cool, yet uncool> $4 sialxzx th bus fare. Anyway, took 5n back to my house. Headed to my house's 7-11, bought cup noodles and went home.
Reached home around 3am, poor Mummy was still up waiting for us. Sorry dearest Mummy, love you. Ate cup noodles together and watched Baybee♥ play dota, like again. Slept only around 4am+.

Saturday,
Woke up around 10am+, ate breakfast together with family. Watched tv and slack around. Went back to sleep around 12pm to 2pm+. 2pm was my tuition, overslept manxzx. So, Mum asked me to skip it. Studied while Baybee♥ played dota like he never did in his life -.- Around 6pm, decided to send Baybee♥ home. Left home and took 178 to CWP. Slack around there. Around 11pm, then took train home around 11pm+.

Sunday,
Went over to Baybee♥'s house around 230pm. Planned to watch movie @ CWP, but we could watch it in th comp via internet. So yeah, its like FOC, why not. Stayed @ his house till 6pm, went down to nearby his house's coffee shop to have our lunch+dinner. Aftermath, headed off to CWP's timezone. Played and slack around till 7pm+. Went to Giordano, Baybee♥ bought some cock up tees and jeans. LOL jkjk. Left CWP around 8pm+, hsh 9pm.

Checked time:
3.38am
Baybee♥ just went off to bed.
I guess im seriously gonna ton till morning 6am+.
So i wont be late for school.

Tag me via commenting me, or not add me up in msn.
Till here then.

2009-04-16T23:42:00.000-07:00

I've moved to http://chankrystal-navin.blogspot.com
& I've privated it.
Kindly dont relink me.
Will only be inviting people who i want to.
Comment me if there's anything.

2009-04-13T23:29:00.000-07:00

I'll be privating my blog tomorow.
1-day-advance
Will only be inviting those who i feel like or want to.

embrace me in your warmth,

2009-04-12T21:53:00.000-07:00

Will be privating my blog vvvvv. soon
~

Shall roughly blog about th highlights from 3rd April to 12th April.
My LG Viewty is currently with Baybee.
Will upload all th pics once i get back with it.

3rdApril,
Went to Sister's hip hop dance concert in th night.
Home around 12am.

4thApril,
Went roller-blading with Baybee @ East Coast Park yaw. (H)
Home around 11pm+.

5thApril,
Work with Baybee for his Mum's shop.
Home around 10pm.

6thApril,
Went home halfway during school, was sick.
Shucks.
Baybee came over to my house later on and accompanied me.

7thApril,
School, then dance.
Aftermath, (forgot alr).

8thApril,
Baybee came over to my house.
Mummy bought dinner home for us.
Slack till around 10pm, then he headed home.

9thApril,
Cab to JW Stadium as i was kinda late.
Sports day} 4X400m.
Aftermath, cab to my house with Baybee.
Got change and all, headed to town.
Baybee bought perfume.
Then 9pm+, cab to Bugis.
Helped Baybee choose clothes, bought couple tee too. :)
Home around midnight.

10thApril,
Went roller-blading with Baybee again.
It rained, and saw Baybee's friends over there.
Aftermath, headed to my house.
Slack till 10pm+, then he headed home.

11thApril,
Went for dance in th morning.
Aftermath, headed for tuition.
Tuition ended, meet up with Baybee.
Train to TPY, make Baybee's hp stuffs.
Dine at there after that, then headed to my house.
Baybee overnight at my house. :D ^^

12thApril,
Today\;
Woke up and ate breakfast together with Baybee.
Went out to popular with Baybee to get some stuffs.
Then went back home again.
Aftermath, did some project work.
Around 4pm then, got change and bathe.
Headed to Jp together with Baybee, then..
Laughs, this part is super funny ok.
@ John little.., yeah Baybee?
Shallnt elaborate, so Baybee wont lose his face. LOL?-.-
Aftermath, headed to Anson/Eilly's house.
Joseph's farewell party, he's going to serve NS.
Almost everyone got drunk over there.
Caught up with a lil stuffs then.
Baybee send me to th mrt, then he went back to catch up with th others.

-

School tomorow like never.
& MYE is coming soon.
Dread tired alright.

I miss you, I love you.

2009-04-11T09:07:00.000-07:00

Hiiiiiii.
Baybee helped me to revived my blog, after a week +.
I was lazy, and occupied.
Deleted some pics from th previous post.
Heh Darling.
Im look like a retaaard. :X
Sorry Baybee, for dropping your Iphone, wasnt on purpose. :(
Baybee did nail polish for me, hotpink.
Nice ok. ^^
Heh. ILY Sweetie; (hearts)
Going for Dance now.
I'll catch up later on when im home.
Going for Dance now.
Byeeeeee.

2009-04-10T23:47:00.000-07:00

I would like to dedicate this post to my sweetie.
hunny i realised this month we taking pictures like mad till we lost the leads in which the order comes from. previously, little photos, therefore great memories. Since you kept complaining of which i didnt transfer the photos from my camera to here, finally did it.
Monkey do u remeber wad nonsense we did in each pic.hehe.
By the way MRS. SWEETIE broke my IPHONE today.
you better buy me new iphone!!!

i would never ask for a better wiffey then u hun.
no women would ever come close to the sacrifices u did fer me.
Hehe finally your mum start to like me a little. gotta make her more happy.
im super super sleepy.i have not finished the photo journel tml ill add in a few more.
ILURVE YOU SWEeetie.
Pandi kutti :D

First few days with fatty.

Newly wedded couples

Sweetie at my crib

Baybee starts studying!!

2009-04-02T22:31:00.000-07:00

I miss you, I miss you.

Viewty's cable is driving me mad.
That i've bluetooth pictures to my lappy, and it'll take a long time.
Im lazy alright, shucks.
(Ps Huining, another day alright.)

01thApril,
Its April Fool Day peeps.
I never once not get fooled ok.
School's Anual Sports Day heats @ JW Staduim.
4X400M & Long jump. (any other events?)
Didnt got to finish any events, as it kept raining.
Finally around 5pm+, School decided to postpone it.
They should have done it, like hours ago.
Was caught in th f,cuking heavy rain.
Ran to school with Winnie, Shirley and co.
I was dread drenched, shivering, freezing cold.
How nice know.
Went back to school for Dance.
Around 6pm+, went to Jp.
Meet up with Baybee, Kaixiang & Lexuan, Joseph.
Walk around Jp, slack.
Around 9pm, took 178.
Alighted at my house there, while Baybee continued to his house.

Today,
School was as usual.
After school, it rained like again.
No chioce but to dashed across th rain.
F,cuking cold in th bus, cock up.
Home around 4pm.

I feel super sick now.
Black outtttttt.

2009-03-31T23:57:00.001-07:00

-

29th,
Baybee came over to my house in th noon.
Slackkk.
Till 7plus 8pm, Dad cooked spagetthi for us.
Then played poker with Baybee.
He left at 10pm.

30th,
Stupid p.e
After school, dance practice.
I sprained my left ankle. :(
Im like; lame now you see.
Dance ended around 6pm+.
Went to meet Mum @ JE.
Signed a new line, got LG Viewty Baby Pink.
I changed my no, lazy to forward my no to everyone, get it from me if you want. :)
Th phone chio dey, but Baybee say like shitxzx. :O

31st,
Went to meet Baybee after his work.
Dinner @ Iestan, walk around Town.
After that, bus to my house.
Slack till 10pm+, headed home.

Dread tired.
I need my bed.

ILMYaPpLE PIEE

2009-03-31T23:34:00.000-07:00

firstly ...anyone wanna find problem think twice.
second please dont find problems wid her, she is baned from making problems so from now on and problems ill be handling straight. so before u make a problem get more then 20 ppl surround me and whack me if you can.
thirdly i no kick one. useless empty vessel. cannot fight. nothing lah. just plain humji, so you can come whack me anytime.

Now to my sweetie.
hun im so happy now.
78%
78.5%
and not forget my 500 kisses today.
hun you will win the bet some day.
study study exam coming.
i hope i dont see mood change in the next few days.
ily sweetie, i wanna roller blade.
i am super fast ok.
K:"baby slowly. ah ah see i told you , you gona fall , see lah neva listen"
N:"dei dei slowly lah "
K:"dei if u fall you dun luv me ahhh"
in the end she made me fall hahahahah
thanks sweetie for teaching me.
i can never get a better wifffffyyyy then u promise.
half a year !!!!
quiting smoking too !!!
baby dun make me stress after i quit.
ily apple pie

2009-03-29T01:48:00.000-07:00

7,

-

28th,
Went for tuition in th noon. After tuition, meet Baybee @ Clementi mrt. Train down to Bedok, then bus to East Coast Park. Went roller-blading with him. Laughs, he fell fell fell fell and fell. I remember there was one part, we fell together in th central of spot. Super ps can, but sweeeeet. & he was saying, 'Why leh, cannot sit here is it'. Ha-ha-ha; Rollerblade from 530-730. After returning th skates, headed to have dinner. Left ECP around 9pm. Aftermath, took 966 to CWP. Baybee went home, then i bus home. Home around 12am.

oh baby oh baby,
you're so hot.

2009-03-28T12:35:00.000-07:00

8 more days to our half a year anni Baybee.
SYF on th 21st April.

27th,
Was a super tiring day. Not much lessons to attend in school, as we went UCC to rehearse for SYF. Aches all over, sweating like a pig. After school, dance practice again. Didnt dance much, and it ended much earlier. After that, went home. Got prepared, then train down to CWP. Meet Baby after his work. Kukubird he is. Bought food at 7-11, then headed to th park nearby his house. Slack there till 10, went home.

i glance at him every moment when he's not noticing,
he's just so perfect.

Right now, im missing him so much.
My lil huuuuuuuuuuunk sweety.

2009-03-26T21:03:00.000-07:00

im everything im,
b'cos you loved me.

-

25th,
Went to find Baybee around in th noon. Poor Baybee, he's sick. Cooked porridge for him, before leaving my house. Cab to Baybee's house. Feed that pig porridge, in all types of stupid ways he could think of. ^^ It has been so many times i've went to his house, and it was never neat. Home after that. Misses~

26th,
Was an hour late for school, obviously overslept. School was as usual. My goals for next year subject combination: A&E-Maths, Triple Science, Geog, Hist. Didnt got to meet up with Baybee today. :( ILY,

th beauty is in th beholder's eyes,

2009-03-25T00:08:00.000-07:00

Truly, madly, deeply.
Imissyouuuuu.

th more comparisions made,
th more i feel insulted.

Krystal just woke,
she has weird sleep time,
and oh,
she's super hungry now!
& feeling kinda down and low too... :(
Whats wrong..
Hungry~

you've got me waiting too long Baybee,

2009-03-24T18:03:00.000-07:00

No one else but you.

he looks just too handsome when's he playing pool,
and in everything.
he's th one in a million,
th best,
th sweetest ever,
who every girl(s) yearns for.

I may be th worse gf of yours,
who you ever 'd,
but you still love me.
Im not taking things for granted,
i just really dont know..
Idk whether am i asking too much from you,
expecting too much from you.
Sometimes my mind somehow doesnt works right.
I want you to be who you're,
but i want some part of you to be how i like.
I've never love someone that much,
till this extent.
Call me a hongster or whatever you like.
That was in th past,
but now i vow its not.
Everyone has their past,
so do i.
Is that wrong?
If you decides to leave me one day,
i wont blame you.. (:
B'cos i know there are other way better girls than me outside,
im one of th worst off one(s).
But i'll still love you no matter what.
Even if you're gonna be botak, disfigured or so,
b'cos you're always and still th best in my eyes.
Honey<3

(i wonder do you even read my blog these days..)

she needs you like there's no tomorow,

2009-03-23T23:11:00.000-07:00

who to pamper me
Shag & Tired.
Be understanding a lil more,

-

Sorry to all those who have been worrying for me over that night.
Ps.
Im fine now anyway.
Thanks.
:)

2009-03-21T13:37:00.000-07:00

I told you guys,
you'll regret for everything,
i'll make you suffer th same pain i'd with me,
i'll make it fair and clear.

It'll be a lil too late when you guys see this post,
i guess?
Dont bother anymore.
You never regarded me as yours' from the start anyway.
I know i dont fucking belong.

Im on run.
M.I.A

2009-03-20T23:41:00.000-07:00

There's still a long way for me ahead.

But..
Im so lost now.
Could someone tell me what should i do?

Jesus, i never want to be friend with you anymore..
You damn my life, didnt you?
Why must you?

I just want to have power for a day,
predict th unpredictable,
complete th impossible
change my own fate.

Why only when a person loses someone,
then only they'll realise th pain of everything they've done,
and only start regretting then?

I'll leave th world,
like how i came in.
With regrets,
or not.

Someone out there, kill th devils for me.
Shucks.

2009-03-19T11:21:00.000-07:00

Halo-Beyonce.
Im officially lost.
But dont worry, im still intact.

2009-03-18T23:59:00.000-07:00

(1:11AM)

I tried to be strong,
but th strength i've is washing away.

-

1230-5+.
Dance, with other 3 secondary schools.
Motivated, Inspired, Self-confidence.
I believe we can do it yeah? (:
Home after that.
Was actually meeting Baby after his work, but it was cancelled in th end.
Know what?
Instead, he surprised me by popping up outside my house door. *winks*
That piggy came in, and had dinner together with my family.
After that, headed to Jp with Baby to buy his working clothes.
~ ~ ~ ~ ~
Got home only at 12am+.
& I saw 3 fights in a row on my way home.

Life is unpredictable.
Whats gonna happen to me next?
No one knows.
Its your mind that controls you.

I'll never forgive myself for that. If one day i would really just leave th world in any ways, just remember you're etched in my heart, always. I've never regretted loving you, swear. You're one in a million. Th feeling inside me for you, is making me insane. I never wanna let you go.

God, please please please grant me a time machine...

2009-03-17T23:04:00.000-07:00

-

14th,
Woke up around 12pm+, got change and stuffs.
Then out to have breakfast cum lunch with Mum & Brother.
After that, headed for tuition.
2-330.
Bus home after tuition.
Bathe and stuffs, meet Baby around 4plus 5pm @ CWP.
Decided to head to town once again.
Train down to Orchad then.
Reach there around 5plus 6pm.
Dinner @ Mac.
After that, walk around Town.
Baby bought his working clothes.
Slack around, bought Baby Vanila milkshake.
After that, 960 back to CWP send Baby home.
Train back to find Mum after her Friend's wedding.
Home around 11pm+.

15th,
Was idling away at home.
Till 6pm, buttocks up and got ready to meet Baby @ Jp around 7.
Dinner there.
Was supposed to head to Bugis, but it was kinda late by then.
So, walked around Jp instead.
Was searching for a bag, but couldnt find one that statisfies me know.
8pm+, 178 send Baby home.
After that, train back home alone.

16th,
6am+, wake that fat pig of mine up for his work @ Town.
Then went back to sleep.
Thought he would call me back around 7am+ to wake me up for my dance.
But, guess what?
That pig didnt.. :(
Was late for dance, as expected.
Mum made breakfast for me.
Had breakfast, bus to school for dance.
830-1230.
Did th usual warm ups and practiced for SYF.
After dance, headed to 619 bball court with Yunqian, Winnie and co.
Its been a long time since i've last play.
3pm+ cum Eilly, Ricky and co joined.
4pm+, left co then train home.
Got home, bathe and prepared.
Train down to meet Baby @ CWP.
Had dinner together.
Tiffed..
He's sucha... f,cuker ok. :D
Ha, was back to normal after of him pampering me. :)
Slack around, 9pm+ send Baby home.
Bus home then.

Finally a day that i've stayed @ home for th whole day.
I bet my parents are proud yeah?
They even say, why not just go stick to him for every single day.
Did my holiday assignments, like oh.
Was waiting for Sister to be back home from KL.
Misses her lots.
She bought a top home for me, bang bangs shirt cum suit vest. :)

Navin's,
he fcukineh own me.

2009-03-14T23:59:00.001-07:00

(1:26 AM)

That moment that lasts forever,

2009-03-14T23:47:00.000-07:00

HEYY PANDI KUTTI.
well it mean baby pig.
so fatty bite my eyes today fuking pain till now. bite here bite there. i think we would be in stomp very soon shee ahhh nonsense girl. well baby getting slighty more mature these days. still long way to go BUT she will get there very soon . babys trying hard to make me laugh these days haha but sadly to no avail.lol. fatty is making me very worried these days sigh .FUllStop . lol these days she really wants me to do alot of werid werid things , hunny just wait till this headache of mine ends. ill be back to normal okays.ily much

signing of
pandi kutti`s idiot

2009-03-13T23:59:00.000-07:00

(12:16AM)

OMG my CMI face

-

Ps for not blogging for days.

I might be privating my blog.
I've stalkers everyday, and they're shooting me back indirectly in school.
Teachers oh?
Is that blogger's privacy?

Well, i shall get back to blogging.
Wednesday Thursday Friday, school was usual.
Got counsel for like almost every lunch/recess break..
How betch can school be!?
One day im f,cuking gonna study right infront of you, and show it to you, what im.

"If there's a will, there's a way."
I tried all ways, so hard so hard, to make you laugh and be happy.
But it doesnt seems to work.
Tongue tied.
Could you tell me what to do?
"It takes two hands to clap."

After school, had dance.
Baby came to fetch me home from school;dance.
Went up to my house, had dinner together with Mum.
After that, change bathe all.
Then headed to town with Baybee<3.
Bought my leggings.
Walk around Orchad/Fareast then.
Baybee<3 bought me starbucks.
Around 10pm+, red line back.
Baybee<3 alighted @ Woodlands, while i continued to Jurong.
Hsh around 11pm+.

Sigh..
I dont want to go to bed,
i dont want to sleep,
i cant sleep,
put me to sleep,
i need you here by my side,
i miss you so much..
(L)

sweetie

2009-03-10T23:21:00.000-07:00

heyy hunny :D
well lets see , today she bought me fox sweet chocolates haha shes a pig.
recently she started printing money.
idiot supposed to watch movie but sch teacher gave problems ,pissed knn scold sweetie like mad. gona anal his ass.
mind is very occupied ,99.9% my apple pie. 0.1% headache .
gona start working soon cant meet ya sweetie.
ily baybee.